Wednesday, April 07, 2010

somewhere the angels are being bossed around

We lost Sputnik today.

The cancer had spread everywhere and there was nothing further that could be done, other than approve an extra dose of isofluorane, and let her pass.

Although she had been spending most of her time lately sleeping in her leopard skin hat,
last night she came downstairs and curled up on her old blanket on the chesterfield and watched a little tv with us. And later, the Spousal Unit brought her upstairs to Skype with the OFKAR. She even gave the webcam a few big face-rubs, just like old times.

And even though she stopped sleeping in my bed a few weeks ago, last night she came upstairs with me and watched me brush my teeth and then waited for me to fill the sink with a couple of inches of water, so that she could have a nice big drink of bathroom sink water, just like she used to do every night.

Yesterday she did not go outside at all, but this morning, she demanded it. Although we were due at the vet in a half hour, I wasn't particularly worried that she would take off for the entire morning like she used to. I'm glad she had that final chance to get out into the world as she always loved to do. It's a shame we didn't have her ratty old lounge chair out on the front deck for her to relax in. She was the poster cat for relaxing in a lounge chair.

Sputnik was one of the fiestiest, fiercest, smartest cats I have ever known. I still can't believe that I tried to talk the Offspring out of adopting that funny-looking little Tortoiseshell,
the very last kitten that was available at the Humane Society, that winter day twelve years ago. Because she turned out to be the very best cat of all.

R.I.P. Sputnik

31 comments:

Dr. Monkey Von Monkerstein said...

Sorry for your loss. Sputnik was a great kitty.

LesleyG said...

I'm so very sorry, Barb. What a tremendous loss.

And from me to you, thanks for being one of the good people (families) that gives animals the lives they ought to have.

Anonymous said...

Our hearts go out to you, Barb, Jerry and Eva.
I like to think Nomie and Sputty have met up by now.
Berni

Wandering Coyote said...

Oh, Barb...NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! I feel so sad reading this, so devastated for you all...I was thinking about you & Sputty and the vet appointment today, hoping there would be a good outcome...I'm so sorry about this. My thoughts are with you all.

Beth said...

Ah, Mizz Zombie, you made me cry. A beautiful, perfect post for a beautiful, perfect being now gone. You're in my thoughts, dear.

Charlie said...

I feel your pain, Barb, because the tears are running down my face.

R.I.P., Sputnik. You had a great mom, dad, and big sister.

URBAN BLONDE said...

I challenge anyone who has loved an animal to make it through that eloquent elegy of a post without a piece of their heart breaking and tears running down their face.

R.I.P. little Zombie
and big hugs to all the big zombies for your tremendous loss

668 aka neighbour of the beast said...

r.i.p. little sputnik.

so sorry for your loss.

mister anchovy said...

I'm so sorry to hear you've lost Sputnik, Barb. She was a beautiful lion.

beth said...

I am so, so sorry Auntie Barb. Our bond with our pets goes beyond words, and I know that Sputty was (and always will be) such an enormous part of your family. All our love and sympathy to you,
Beth, Tim, and Habby

SME said...

I'm so sorry. I saw your FB note about Sputnik's surgery and had fingers crossed. It's incredible how close we become to our critter friends. It's not *like* they're part of the family - they're actually part of the family.

Toccata said...

Can't seem to stop crying. I am so sorry. That was a lovely, lovely send off for her. She really was one lucky cat.

Moxie said...

So sorry to hear about Sputnik. Two close friends of mine lost their beloved kitties to cancer recently - it's just heartbreaking. I love the title of this post because cats are truly quite bossy.

Going to hug Mossimo and Ippie a little tighter tonight.

bloody awful poetry said...

I am so terribly sorry about Sputnik. Even though cats are not my favourite thing in the world, you've certainly talked enough about her to make me believe she was indeed, every bit as awesome as a cat could possibly be. And this post is a beautiful little tribute to that.

kelly said...

very sorry

Barbara Bruederlin said...

Thank you so much, everyone. Your kind words and thoughts are helping me deal with those phantom shadows and with the empty places in the house and in my heart. You are helping more than you can ever know.

Jetson Stamina said...

My heart goes out to you.

You never really say goodbye to a pet... they stay with you.

Hang in there.

leazwell said...

:(

Moe W said...

What a wonderful tribute to such an important part of your family; Sputnik will surely be missed.

Jack W said...

Rest in peace sputnik. You will be missed by all.

Barbara Bruederlin said...

I am so touched by how kind everyone is. Thank you all so much for all your for your thoughts and your kindness.

Stephanie said...

I'm so sorry to hear of your loss. I know what you're going through, I lost my dog to cancer last June after having her for 13 years. It was extremely hard. My thoughts are with you.

Barbara Bruederlin said...

Oh no, I didn't realize, Stephanie. I'm so sorry.

sp said...

I only stop by occasionally, and on this occasion I had to comment because I was so moved by your post. I am so so sorry for your loss. What a beautiful cat. I can tell from your post and from everyone's comments how much she was loved.

rachael chatoor said...

I'm so sorry Barb, my wishes of love go out to you. You gave a beautiful being a wonderful life. That is precious, and eternal. xoxo

BeckEye said...

Awww, I'm so sorry to hear this. Losing a pet is always awful, usually made more so by those "people" who just don't understand what it's like to love an animal and have it unconditionally love you back. Hopefully, you don't know many of those "people" and are getting lots of hugs and cups of tea.

Barbara Bruederlin said...

Thank you so much, everyone, for your kind thoughts.

~Jen~ said...

Awww Barb :o(

So sorry about kitty...seemed like a super awesome good pet and companion...

How did u find the vet exoperience?
I found it most traumatizing with our last cat....
Perhaps I am easily traumatized though...

Lemme know when youre ready for a new one...I will hook u up!

Barbara Bruederlin said...

Thanks, Jen. The house still seems so empty.
We had a really good experience with the vet. She is a great combination of sympathetic and straightforward. She gave me a big hug and we talked about how much Sputnik hated her.

Jas B said...

Oh Barb...sputnik is not with us anymore...
I missed this post, was traveling and was in India...just read the post about Ramona and was wondering where Sputnik was...till I read to the end of the post and then started hunting for a post on Sputnik...
I hope she is at a peaceful place...

Barbara Bruederlin said...

Thanks Jas, I am sure she is at peace.