Friday, December 28, 2007

wake from your sleep, the drying of your tears, today we escape, we escape

Thanks so much to everyone who left sympathetic and encouraging notes about my stupid back issues. You have no idea how much those meant to me, reminding me that there is a world beyond this ball of pain.

Yesterday Jerry dragged my drugged up self to the doctor who told me that the super-duper drugs I was taking were crap and would only make me feel brain dead. This was true, and I had great hopes for the ones he gave me in their stead. We even watched Meeting People is Easy last night, which I was thrilled to get for Christmas. And I even remember watching it, unlike the night before when I am told we watched The Filth and the Fury, which I only vaguely remember. I was thinking that today we might even get out of the house to see Walk Hard.

But it seems my optimism was premature, as this morning I woke feeling worse than ever. I am so bummed out by this crap, but it has taught me to appreciate the relatively painfree moments (like right now). And I have learned that this does not necessarily mean that I will be going out salsa dancing tomorrow, but I am glad to have been able to sit and play a game of Scrabble this afternoon and to have sufficient attention span to hit the computer for a while.
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Because who knows what tomorrow will bring.
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I hope you are all enjoying your Christmas break, and are gearing up for a great weekend. I hope to return to regularly scheduled programming shortly.

13 comments:

Toccata said...

Sorry to hear your back is still causing you problems. No doubt it sucks doubly since this is your holiday! Take care and maybe you should try a routine of wine before bed for medicinal purposes of course. Take care.

John Mutford said...

I'm one of the heels that didn't yet write a sympathetic note. Hopefully, you're back in the game before you know it.

Barbara Bruederlin said...

I have my fingers firmly crossed as I tell you that I've been starting to feel a little more decent for a good 5 hours now, Toccata. I'm not putting any money on it, but perhaps with a glass or two of wine, I shall begin my climb out of the abyss.

So that's why I wasn't getting any better, John; it's all your fault! I believe I have turned the corner now, so thanks.

strangemange said...

my darling barbara
please get better soon because
haiku bad on drugs.

justacoolcat said...

Weird, Exit Music is playing on the iPod right now. Let's hope it's a sign your back pains are on the way out.

Allison said...

I am sorry to hear your back is still hurting. I was hoping with the new post that meant things were on the mend. Well, I shall boo to that and I am shaking a fist at the universe for you. ;)

Take care and hope you are able to make it out of the house today.

Dale said...

I knew my philosophy of eat more, move less was a winner for a reason. Get better now!

Dr. Monkey Von Monkerstein said...

Get better soon my little zombie of the north.

Barbara Bruederlin said...

hahaha Michelle, my haikus are bad anytime, drugs or no drugs. But I'm making progress, sweetie, thanks for the encouragement.

It's some sort of cosmic connection between your ipod and my crybaby back, Just A. I am taking it as a sign - thanks!

Things are starting to improve, Al - I have discovered how wonderful a heated towel feels against my back and I have now figured out the best chair in the house. It's the little things that make the difference.

Turns out you were right all along, Dale. From now on, I shall be your grasshopper and mimic everything you do.

Thank you, my southern monkey friend. I am getting there, Dr M.

Anonymous said...

Hey Barb,
Sorry to hear that your back is still causing you pain.
Thanks to Jerry for dragging your drugged up self to the doctor and getting something that is going to help the situation and not make you brain dead (er)!:)
Hey I put something in the snail mail for you guys and I hope it will cheer you up.
Take care,
Bruno

Barbara Bruederlin said...

Awww thanks, Bruno! You're my favourite brother!

Feeling considerably better today and I may even kick some asses at Scrabble this afternoon.

Deb said...

I'm no doctor but I AM an expert in broken backs (well, sort of broken).

A few rules that you probably already know....

Don't sit for too long.

Don't sit in a drafty spot.

Also....

I lie down on the floor on my back, knees bent/up. Relax/breathe as you push the small of your back into the floor, pulling your pelvis forward (don't get too excited boys). Repeat several times.

Also, when you're able, stretch your hip flexors...you'd be surprised how much they impact your back and, when they're too tight, it can put extra strain on your back. If you need to know the hip flexor stretch, let me know (but I'm sure you already do because you are a work out machine.)

Hope my little tidbits help...I'm sure you already knew them.

And could you please sign this waiver before you perform these?

Hang in there. This, too, shall pass.

Barbara Bruederlin said...

Waiver is signed and winging its way back to you by owl, Deb. Thanks so much for these tips. This will save me physio costs, which I likely wouldn't do anyway, being more of a do it yourself kinda girl. I hope your back has fully healed as well now.