Is it sad that I am so glad to be staying home tonight?
I guess that's one of the perks of having been married for 300 or so years, you don't feel the obligation to always be out socializing. Unlike when I was in university, when I thought that if I didn't have anything to do on a Friday or Saturday night that I was a loser. I know, I was really pathetic and insecure. Mind you, I was also really poor and didn't even have a tv or anything decent to eat, so staying in was pretty boring and frankly, a little depressing. (Somehow I still always managed to have money to go drinking though, hmmmm)
Maybe I was just a late bloomer, that's sort of more high school mentality, don't you think? You would think by university I would have had a little more self-confidence, but no. I was reminded of all this as I was listening to Definitely Not the Opera today, where the theme was high school. They delved into all the insecurities and the cliques and those dreams about being naked in high school looking for your locker.
One thing which was mentioned that I found interesting was that people never stop thinking about their high school days, no matter how old they are. Hence, the popularity of John Hughes movies and 80s nostalgia. Apparently your high school experience is what defines you, as it is a microcosm of adult society and people will always look back to their high school days for a guideline in their lives.
Which made me realize that I never think about high school. Ever. Couldn't give a shit about it. I couldn't wait to get the hell out of there. It wasn't bad, but I wanted to get on with my life.
I'm not really sure what that says about me. Probably just that I am doing too much navel gazing today.
But I am curious about your high school days and how you think back on them. Were they the defining days of your formation? Do you have those high school anxiety nightmares? Am I just a maladjusted freak?