Wednesday, May 24, 2006

I told you I was a good flosser!

Another gold star in hygiene at the dentist today. Which used to be a big deal because if you got four gold stars in a row you got a sweet gift certificate for the Bay or someplace, I forget. And a substantial one, like $50 or so.
But they've discontinued that and now we just get a pat on the back, which is better than a kick in the ass with a frozen army boot, I guess.

Did you catch The Hour last night? Did you hear about Evelyne? Her blog was featured along with her tale of the birth of Stroumbo the baby goat. Both Barbara W and Alana had their comments about the blessed event read on air and it was a lovely moment. It was a surreal injection of blog life into my so-called real life (okay television is still just light waves on a screen but more people access it).

Blog reality seems to be a larger part of my existence all the time. I don't know if this should be cause for alarm or not. Is a friendship less valid if you have never touched the person or heard their voice or, in some cases, even seen their face? I don't think so. Oh perhaps in some cases I guess it can be, as we can filter out aspects of our personalities and our lives if we choose to, but in general, we do share a lot of our lives online. And if not our daily grind existence, then at least our philosophies, our random thoughts, our concerns, our humour. I think you can get a pretty good feel for a person from their blog and from their comments on your blog.

It puts me in mind a little of the part in Douglas Coupland's book, Microserfs, where two characters have fallen in love through the internet. They plan to meet, and they have never even exchanged names; in fact, neither of them knows what gender the other is. And yet they are both prepared to love whomever the other turns out to be.

Oh relax, I'm not saying I'm in love with any of you! I'm just speculating on the nature of this thing we participate in and how it shapes our lives.

I do like you, though.

28 comments:

Allison said...

Barbara,
I had the same conversation with my roommate last night, after hearing about the blogs being read on 'The Hour.' It was slightly hard to explain, as I was like "Hey, I know those people...well, kinda...through proxy." But I agree with you, in the sense that I think its easier to share more online, because its so 'fast' you type without thinking, therefore more truth comes through. I don't know if I'm making again sense, but the fact that I look forward to reading everyone's comments (on the various blogs) speaks enough :)

Evelyne said...

Barbara,
I think that in a blog it's way easier to say what you think... you type it and post it. You can talk about whatever you want, someone might read it and give you their comments... or not. You can write about whatever pass through your mind, and you're not feeling that you're bugging someone because you're talking about something that matters to you, because people have the choice to read or not your blog.
Having a blog is pretty cool, for example, my friends don't understand why I like The Hour, but you guys do. When I told them that George talked about my blog and Barbara and Alana they were like: what? Who are they, and by the way, who is George and you have a blog? (yes, i told you guys)... I tried to explain but after 5 minutes I gave up.
And you're right, it's not because you never met someone that you don't know that person.

kelly said...

sighhhhhhhhhhhhhh....Barbara looooooooves me...haaa haa haa

kelly said...

ok maybe not

John Mutford said...

Not to mention- it's addictive.

And it's wierd how easily accessible people are with similar tastes and interests, and that you seem to stumble upon such people almost without trying- yet in real life the majority seems to be into everything I'm not. From a small town, the blogging world is like a city. Only without Thai restaurants- could someone work on that?

Barbara said...

Evelyne, and Allison and Barbara B, We love Barbara B. don't we? And dang Barbara that was well said!
Sometimes I have a hard time telling people my stories in person because I already explained it all on my blog... But my verbal skills are not completely broken.
I am going to have the same kind of conversation at work tomorrow explaining what happened on the Hour. My co-workers will just kinda smile and nod. Some even know who George S. is so I don't have to explain it all. My best friend Tobey (who made the sets for the play I am going to) was over this morning and the first thing I showed her was the Tape of The Hour. Then we had coffee with 'the mugs'. She loves The Hour Mugs and she thinks George is hot too. lol Too bad her three kids make it hard for her to get a moment to watch TV.

Barbara Bruederlin said...

There is that anomymity factor, Allison, that can make you more free to express yourself in some instances. And yes, sometimes it can feel like you are just writing in a journal or something, forgetting that your words are going online around the world, and then holy shit, it's too late, you posted it. And then you say to yourself, oh well, if they don't like what I say, fuck em.
I really look forward to reading everyone's comments on everyones's blogs too.

Evelyne, I think that you're in a bit of a unique situation, in that you blog in almost a different culture than the one you live in real life. You blog almost exclusively in English (and very well too!) and in the blogs you can discuss interests that you don't share with your real-life friends.
I know that I am richer because of the people I have met blogging.

Kelly, how could I not looooooove you? I saw you in your bathing suit, for Christ's sake. What sane woman could resist you?

John, I nominate you in charge of getting some good Thai restaurants going on the blogs.
I agree, it's the sense of community that is so addictive. Even when you live in a big city, you don't necessarily find that many like-minded people. Our circles are still fairly small in our real-lives, I think. Having that ease of kinship is very addictive, as you say.

Barbara Bruederlin said...

Awww, Barbara W, you're making me blush and scuff my toes in the dirt.
I know what you're saying, though; I think I express myself better in writing as well -sometimes - other times I just suck at that.
Like John was saying, on the blogs you find a community with similar tastes and interests, while at work, you're stuck with who you work with. (Which can be great, if you are reading this, Jas!)
I'm glad you could share your exciting news with Tobey.

kelly said...

...actually....any sane woman....haaa haa...

Barbara Bruederlin said...

okay maybe sanity isn't a prerequisite then, Kelly. But the nutty ones are really fun on a date, I'm told.

Alana said...

I luuuuuuuuvs you Barbara. :P

But seriously, I don't think the physical/geographic aspect has to be a priority for friendship or buddyhood at all. I guess some blogless/proxyless people would think otherwise, but I don't think the "lives down the street" thing is neccessary to grow attatchment to anyone, whether it be with friendship or romance or even familial.

Besides, you guys are the only ones who understand my love for The Hour, everyone else thinks I'm nuts!! :P

Ben Heller said...

And I like you too Barbara....cause you send me good music in the mail.

Oddly enough, my blog is unusual in the fact that I deliberately try not to offer personal insights into my life. I'm just trying to get people interested in music and all that it has to offer.

My comments on other people's blogs are the real me, and I often like to tell little anecdotes and stories.

Comments on peoples blogs tell a lot about the person, I feel sure.

Barbara Bruederlin said...

It true, Alana. I know you guys way better than the family across the street and down three houses. I've only ever seen them when I'm out canvassing for the Kidney Foundation (and they never make a donation).
It's like John said, on the blogs you can easily find people who share sensibilities. (We think you are nuts too, but we love you that way)

Your blog is indeed very specific to music, Ben, but I have noticed on other people's blogs that you are very forthcoming about your life. And you've got some great stories!
I'm thinking I'm going to need to put another mix together for you soon, as I've discovered some more Canadian musicians you just have to hear!

Maureen said...

*blushing* I like you too Barbara :) Blogging is my sanity, it's that whole small place thing where very few people understand even part of where I'm coming from. Thank god they don't know I blog, haha. Oh, and Thai would be nice.

Barbara Bruederlin said...

Nobody there knows you blog, Maureen? Wow, how did you manage that? But, yeah I understand. How would you be able to talk about them? I imagine Summerside in particular will never be informed of your blog address.

Maureen said...

I can keep a secret :) and you're right, I hope Summerside NEVER finds out, lol.

Barbara Bruederlin said...

Well, your secret is safe here, Maureen, as we are all the epitome of discretion around here.

Will said...

I should say that my blog has taken up such a great deal of my life... that it has certainly become a defining part of my life. I feel like I keep in touch more with my blog "friends" than with my "real friends."

Barbara Bruederlin said...

a defining part of your life, Will ... that's a great way to put it and, yes, the same has happened to me. I do stay in touch with my blog friends more frequently than with my family now it seems (the family who don't live with me, that is).

michelle said...

Blogging drives me crazy because I end up having dreams about people I don't know based on written sick jokes and anecdotes... hey, I made a rhyme...

I think I've had more honest + real conversations with people I've met via blogging than in real life recently. You, Barbara, are a perfect example of that kind of friendship. I don't have to know what you look like, hear your voice, or meet you to know that you're the real deal.

In a way, it makes the inevitable face-time that much more valuable. To me at least.

michelle said...

And yay on the pearly whites! I'm scared, I have to do that dentist thing too... whimper...

Barbara Bruederlin said...

It's true what you say, Michelle. Often my real-life conversations can be auto-remote (but that's entirely my fault for spacing out when discussing the same thing that was discussed yesterday).
I feel the same kinship with you, Michelle, and with GOB as well. If you guys make it up here or we make it down there, it'll be scary great. It will happen.

debz said...

I would've never even known about "The Hour" if it wasn't for you guys. And the "blog" thing has been a fantastic outlet for me. As a single, working mom with NO friends (time constraints see to that), this has been a God send for me. Between working and caring for the kids, I care for my mom who's paralyzed by stroke and my dad who's battling serious health issues also. This leaves me "zero" time and I've had to give up any kind of friendships, other than this. At a very lonely, busy, worrying time of my life this is a wonderful "escape"....I thank each and every one of you for listening to my (usually long) ramblings. Thank God for blogs (and when I get beyond using this new computer as an overpriced WP, I will start one also. For now, I really just love visiting all of yours!). Thanks, thanks and THANKS!!!

Barbara Bruederlin said...

Oh that's so nice to hear debz! Not that your life is so harried of course, but that you can find companionship in blog friends. I really hope you DO start your own blog when you get a chance, as we would love to come visit you there as well.

I feel for you and your mom. My dad was also incapacitated with a stroke for about 7 years, and I work in stroke research as well, so I am all too familiar with how very difficult it can be for families. Bless you for caring for your mom - that must be very hard at times.

phlegmfatale said...

Only I think we are more essentially ourselves in our unvarnished glory here than anywhere else in existence. I don't obsess about my blog, but it is a very important part of my day. I think unlike any other forum on earth, we have here the ability to connect with our true tribe of folks who we can respect if not agree with - people who share common interests and enjoy exploring new pathways. Blog is a social outlet to have a more sustained conversation about a topic than in chat, for example, and it can be carried out with people around the world. It isn't that physicality is of no importance, but I think this is a way of inviting others' involvement in one's inner dialog which is impossible to achieve with someone you see daily. I really like the people whose blogs I comment on, and I like the people who come to mine. Furthermore, my blessing to anyone who feels they have met their soulmate through blog. Good on them!

Barbara Bruederlin said...

Well said, Phlegmfatale. It comes back to finding community regardless of your geography, and emphasizes that our minds are indeed the true indicator of ourselves. We bloggers are rather the opposite of the super-model in that regard.

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